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Hi. I am almost 18, 5′3″ and 108 pounds. I wear a size 1-2 in jeans, but I am still sort of fat. I have a pot belly, and my boyfriend has even brought it up to me saying I would look better with a smaller stomach. I have suffered from an eating disorder for almost three years, and I’ve gained 10 agonizing pounds toward the sake of my health only and this is what becomes of it. I get a pot belly and my boyfriend negatively comments my body. I already have terrible self-image, and it just adds on to it. I want to firm my stomach and legs and lose a little bit of weight, around 5-7 pounds. Would that be dangerously unhealthy? I am just desperate to feel better, to feel more confident, and to look better. I am Asian and other Asian friends look at me like I am a “fat American.” Forgive me if this sounds like pitiful anorexic-media brainwash, but I feel so huge and ugly. I’ve been trying to heal emotionally from anorexia and every time I eat, self confidence is knocked down but I have to force myself to eat so I can maintain health. I exercise an hour a day, but nothing is happening and every time I look in the mirror, I want to cry. I do not want to gain weight, I do not want to go to therapy, I don’t want to get better, I guess is what I’m trying to say. I just wish I could be healthy AND look thin. Is there any way to do that at all?

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